By Michelle Mitchum, HHP and Founder of The OrangeMoon Health and Wellness.
Meet Kimberly Racine Cherry, cast member of the documentary Die, Crazy, Fat
I had the pleasure of attending a screening for “Die, Crazy, Fat”, a documentary about 8 courageous women, who explore holistic healing methods to manage their health. The film is the first project of Buona Donna Productions, a media company founded by two talented women of color, Tonya Conrad and Nichole Nickles.
the films’ participants are diverse in ethnicity and their health issues range from obesity to reproductive and mental to spiritual health. The wellness professionals in the film are healers who apply holistic principles to aid in their practice and the team of experts chosen for this project include a naturopathic physician, sound healer, yoga instructor, personal trainer, social therapist, and food expert.
When I received an invite to the screening, I was pleasantly surprised to learn that my college friend, and fellow Morgan State University alumni, Kim Racine-Cherry, was one of the subjects. In college, Kim was perceived as the “sexy sophisticate”. She was (and still is), the epitome of class and grace. She is stunningly beautiful, smart and successful, a wife and mother of 2 who was courageous enough to share an intimate part of her life with us, on the big screen.
After the movie I got a chance to catch up with Kim and she opened up about her participation in the film.
*Our chat also gave my ever watchful trained eye the opportunity to highlight some areas that Kim and I can work on.
MM: How did you feel watching yourself on the big screen?
KC: I was really uncomfortable, because I am used to being much smaller than I was at the time of filming. I am used to being small. I knew at that time that I was the biggest I have ever been, however I did not know to what extent. I was unhappy with the way that I looked, and I was really embarrassed while watching most of the film, to look at myself. I asked some of the other cast members after the screening, “Why didn’t you tell me that I was a fat girl”?
*Although self-deprecation is a comfortable place for many women, it is actually not beneficial to the process of mind, body and soul healing. While it is important to be honest with ourselves, it is also important to be gentle and compassionate. This is how we experience the best results that will last a lifetime.
MM: (Laugh) Girl, you are something else! You aren’t fat at all. After the taping ended, how was life for you?
KC: Well, I knew that after the filming I would have to apply what I learned so that I could show the benefits of what I took from the experience. I wanted there to be a noticeable difference at the premier. In the past, I spent a few years as a vegetarian, so I did a really strict diet, and I joined the running club “Black Girls Run”. When I went out to run, I really didn’t expect to meet up with women that were so welcoming and encouraging. It is because of the specialness of the women of the group that I was able to get back into running the way that I did.
*Community support and fellowshipping is where it’s at! However, doing “really strict diets” have been proved time and again to be associated with a high rate of weight regain. A better approach is to make gentle overall lifestyle changes which can be both sustained and added upon over time.
MM: Were there any techniques that you learned in the film that you were able to apply to your life after the filming stopped?
KC: You know, as women we take care of everyone else before we take care of ourselves. Everything comes before us and our well being. After filming, I really made a conscious effort to put myself first, to put my feelings first. And, I really saw a change in my life from that. I realize that you really have to stop and take time for yourself, or you will lose it. I didn’t realize that until I was forced to talk about it with the therapist in the film.
MM: Kim, I remember in the film you said that no one person knew everything about you.
KC: I’m still kind of closed to a certain extent, because that’s just my nature. That is how I have always been. However, I have started communicating more with my husband. I really think it was a little hurtful for him to hear me say that in the film. I mean, he is my husband, and he’s thinking that we are supposed to be able to share everything. It has given us a breakthrough in our marriage, and it feels good.
*While it is true that we all have different personalities and comfort levels in terms of sharing the deeper parts of ourselves, it is important to have safe spaces where we can open up. Emotional blockage and the heaviness of holding onto so much has direct impact on our physical health. For many women, keeping everything inside can effect our weight, cause issues in our reproductive area and result in depression and anxiety.
MM: Kim, where would you say that you are now in your health journey?
KC: Since the filming, I had gotten sick and had to be hospitalized. I had to deal with that. So, at this point, I am not where I would like to be. I went from running everyday, to not having run in over 3 weeks. That bump in the road threw me offtrack, and I am not as active as I would like to be at present. But I have to force myself to get back on track.
*When we find ourselves offtrack, it is important to gently ease ourselves back into a fitness regimen. If we compare ourselves to where we were or where we think we should be, we may feel overwhelmed and never get started at all. One step is a step in the right direction.
MM: What are your thoughts on holistic healing methods?
KC: I am interested in it. I am still learning about it. I believe it has its benefits. There are aspects of it that I haven’t explored, that I am willing to try.
MM: Have you explored any holistic
healing methods outside of the film?
KC: Yes, I have had a colonic before, and that was a great experience for me. There was a period in my life where I was really muddled, and a bit crabby and irritable. The first time I got a colonic, I felt free. I can’t really explain it, but it felt like a weight was lifted, and things were a lot clearer for me. My mood improved, and I felt refreshed. Then I learned later that the toxins in my body had a lot to do with my mood and emotions.
MM: Yes, that is very true. In holistic healing, the belief is that mind, body and spirit are completely connected. It’s not like you can heal the body without dealing with the other areas of your being. So, it is not surprising that you felt a sense of freedom and more positive feelings after that process.
Kim, based on our discussion, I would like to offer you a 3 month holistic wellness plan by way of my company The OrangeMoon Holistic Health and Wellness. We would also like to document your experience in the process. Would you be interested?
MM: Wonderful! Kim, it has been a pleasure speaking with you, and I look forward to working with you on your wellness journey.
It is my goal to work with Kim on the mind, body and soul levels, not to bring her sexy back (because it hasn’t gone anywhere), but to remind her of her sexiness, power and glory as a woman. We will check in with Kim in 3 months, to learn about her experience. Stay tuned; there is more to come!
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